Okay, so I don't want to walk around complaining... so I am here to do it. My stress level is rising without a reprieve in sight. Last night I dreamt that Dina didn't remember me. She was calling someone else mommy. OUCH! I know it's basically in the bag... but the reality is, it's not over till it's over. The worst part is not knowing if there is some ridiculous thing tying things up. The paperwork we need is coming through the mail. Which means it could very well be lost. At least it would seem it was lost. I'm back to checking the mailbox everyday with high hopes of news. I realize God is working on my patience...BUT...this seems more about having introduced a little girl to parents and then taking them away for several months. It's horrible. She has to be wondering... or worse, forgetting.
In addition to the wait, is the lack of fellow Latvian adoption goers to compare things with. I know of Linda who has just traveled for court. She came home at the end of December and rcvd notice to leave in mid February. She had extra paperwork to get corrected and submitted before approval. So what the heck... it's been over a month for us and we haven't even submitted our I800! That's an entire source of stress in itself. The last time we dealt with USCIS, we had a delay of two months because of ONE word!!! The I800 is much more difficult than the I800A. I can't imagine we will squeek thru that one after the first submittal.
Even Brent is asking questions about the longer than expected wait. And everyone knows he has the patience of Job. I'll say it just to say it... we were told that there were no certainties with International Adoption and the time frame etc... Believe it!!! It is so true. And yes, it has been worth it. I wouldn't give up this opportunity for anything. But it's tough.
Tomorrow is March 14th. We left Latvia the first week of February. I don't know if writing that makes it seem longer or shorter. Either way... I miss her and I am ready for her to start her life with us. Thanks for letting me vent. I need to go to bed and hope my headache retires too.
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Hi there, just found your blog via AAC's webpage. I came to ask questions but it sounds like you need a little encouragement. I know things can be tough but we have a God who passionately loves and cares for orphans and He is using you to display that love to all those you meet. Rest peacefully, my dear, knowing that you can cast your anxieties on His broad shoulders!
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